I keep pushing her away

Why miss an opportunity? When is the moment perfect if not now?

She considered herself. Took note of her vulnerabilities, assessed her failures and reluctantly recalled her successes. The rain, so brief, was audible as it hit the ground in front of her and pelted the large frangipani leaves that arose in a ceramic pot just beside the white fence. Not alone but feeling as if she were, she closed her eyes. It was the one way she knew to lose her solid self and dissolve in a dark and vast space, free from judgment.

Within seconds, she felt the glare of sunlight through her closed eyelids. Ah, how she preferred the darkness. It was comforting in its mystery and magnitude. "I must tell him" she thought. "I must. I'll never forgive myself if I don't".

Sometimes god hugs me and
I have no idea why
I keep pushing her away
It is as if I hate her
But how could I when
I don't really know her?

The Child that I am

I'm giving lots of hugs

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I've been reminding myself to give hugs. Lots and lots of them. In my mind.

I hug the earth, the entire planet. Then I expand even more and hug the universe. It is limitless. So how do you hug something limitless. You become limitless yourself, of course! Ah, it is a marvelous feeling - expanding beyond limit - so liberating. It is like taking of the tightest possible outfit and shoes. Only it is a million, zillion times more freeing than that.

And to hug. Oh my goodness! How nice is that! Every time someone or something that I have been upset with comes to mind, I give them a hug. It instantly dissolves all the hurt. It brings a smile, a warm, peaceful within me.

Hugged by God

When god hugs me
I melt so quickly
and so completely
that god and I become one

Thing is god is
always hugging me
I just haven't learnt how
to hug back
And sometimes
I just forget

The Child I am